Wiping the dust off.
I know this thing is old but i'm starting to see several friends on here so i decided to start her up again.
I've been through alot in the past week, monday through wednesday, i dealt with alot of extra government meetings in preperation for our "We the People" competition on Friday.
Thursday we left for competition and spent about 4 hours on the bus. Now most of what Lionel, James, Ben, and I did was use our 3rd period IMing system ( a piece of paper we hand around and write on). As the conversation continued Ben revealed that a particular girl on the trip had caught his fancy, and we began to press the issue, and push him, to talk to her, and such. Well during this discussion a particular flutter hit my heart, because i realized I was pressing him to do something with an opportunity we actually shared. For you see there was another girl, on that same bus who had grabbed my attention recently, so I opted to take the advice that i had solicited to Ben and offer it to myself.
To preface that, the girl inparticular (if you have to ask you don't need to know) had been in my government class but thanks to a particular friend of mine, had influenced me to steer clear (against my better judgement). So what changed that suddenly made me not care? The friend in question had recently hooked up with a girl with he had once been in bitter distate. That and the fact that regardless of his opinion I was going to try.
So what attempts did I make? well after some wrangling i texted her some over the course of the trip. But something that really made me feel it was worth continuing, (cuz ben's negative attitude was affecting me) was that (whether by accident or not) we ended up sitting next to each other during most of the proceedings at competition. I imply a lack of accident because her roommate (who i can safely assume knew i was txting her the previous night) called to me as i entered the Representatives chamber and told me to sit in one of two seats in front of her, the other was conveniently occupied by the girl I like.
Her group was second to go and truthfully her nerves got to her (as they did all of us), but she has since blamed herself for single-handedly preventing us from getting 1st place. I did my best to console her but nothing doing. we were soon on the bus headed home.
We resumed our poorman's AIM session (but James soon departed for personal reason's). The topic quickly drifted back to girls and soon to Ben's situation, but I was silent aside from a few agreeances with lionel since i, too, seemed to be lacking any signs of success. Ben quickly pointed out to me that the girl of my interest was sitting alone, and I tried to find some lame reason to go up there and sit next to her but not luck she planned on sleeping.
As the day turned to night we stopped for dinner, she hadn't slept (but no matter). As we returned to the bus, many of the people further up the bus, including the girl I liked and her friend, had begun a stirring game of Truth or Dare to which Lionel and I were witnesses for a time, but we were soon bored (everyone calling 'truth' only held so much entertainment value) so we began to watch Harold and Kumar go to White Castle (one of the greatest movies of all time) and just as it begins, I here her friend call out "Who all is playing," to which Lionel responds "Matt is" knowing full well that i have avoided the game due to "the girl I like's" participation in it. Her friend seizes the opportunity and quickly asks the question which has made many a brave man crumble... "truth or dare?"
Well I am by no means a weak soul but the last thing i wanted to do at that moment was deal with performing a stunt in front of the girl I like, so I took the path more travelled and chose "truth". The question was rather straight forward, " Do you like sum1 on the bus?" to which i responded with a truth full, "its highly possible" and returned to my movie.
Warning!!! the following is the only thing i regret about the entire trip.
Towards the end of the movie the girl I like came back to where i and lionel were sitting, and I'll admit my heart jumped when i realized it but i tried to play it cool, FYI i suck at playing it cool. U see instead of diverting my attention to the girl I like who was now paying special attention to me I opted to watch the movie.(which i could quote by heart), with her watching along, figuring I'll finish it then we'll talk. like I said terrible at playing it cool.
Well the trip soon ended, and realizing (after some discussion with my friends) that i had royally effed up with her I let her know that i was sorry for ignoring her and she said it was alright, but i haven't gotten a single response from her in any way, shape or form to any other forms of communication (txting, calling, myspace), and its been 2 days.
There is no telling what could have happened had that time been put to better use but the past is for history majors and so I press on.
-matt
I've been through alot in the past week, monday through wednesday, i dealt with alot of extra government meetings in preperation for our "We the People" competition on Friday.
Thursday we left for competition and spent about 4 hours on the bus. Now most of what Lionel, James, Ben, and I did was use our 3rd period IMing system ( a piece of paper we hand around and write on). As the conversation continued Ben revealed that a particular girl on the trip had caught his fancy, and we began to press the issue, and push him, to talk to her, and such. Well during this discussion a particular flutter hit my heart, because i realized I was pressing him to do something with an opportunity we actually shared. For you see there was another girl, on that same bus who had grabbed my attention recently, so I opted to take the advice that i had solicited to Ben and offer it to myself.
To preface that, the girl inparticular (if you have to ask you don't need to know) had been in my government class but thanks to a particular friend of mine, had influenced me to steer clear (against my better judgement). So what changed that suddenly made me not care? The friend in question had recently hooked up with a girl with he had once been in bitter distate. That and the fact that regardless of his opinion I was going to try.
So what attempts did I make? well after some wrangling i texted her some over the course of the trip. But something that really made me feel it was worth continuing, (cuz ben's negative attitude was affecting me) was that (whether by accident or not) we ended up sitting next to each other during most of the proceedings at competition. I imply a lack of accident because her roommate (who i can safely assume knew i was txting her the previous night) called to me as i entered the Representatives chamber and told me to sit in one of two seats in front of her, the other was conveniently occupied by the girl I like.
Her group was second to go and truthfully her nerves got to her (as they did all of us), but she has since blamed herself for single-handedly preventing us from getting 1st place. I did my best to console her but nothing doing. we were soon on the bus headed home.
We resumed our poorman's AIM session (but James soon departed for personal reason's). The topic quickly drifted back to girls and soon to Ben's situation, but I was silent aside from a few agreeances with lionel since i, too, seemed to be lacking any signs of success. Ben quickly pointed out to me that the girl of my interest was sitting alone, and I tried to find some lame reason to go up there and sit next to her but not luck she planned on sleeping.
As the day turned to night we stopped for dinner, she hadn't slept (but no matter). As we returned to the bus, many of the people further up the bus, including the girl I liked and her friend, had begun a stirring game of Truth or Dare to which Lionel and I were witnesses for a time, but we were soon bored (everyone calling 'truth' only held so much entertainment value) so we began to watch Harold and Kumar go to White Castle (one of the greatest movies of all time) and just as it begins, I here her friend call out "Who all is playing," to which Lionel responds "Matt is" knowing full well that i have avoided the game due to "the girl I like's" participation in it. Her friend seizes the opportunity and quickly asks the question which has made many a brave man crumble... "truth or dare?"
Well I am by no means a weak soul but the last thing i wanted to do at that moment was deal with performing a stunt in front of the girl I like, so I took the path more travelled and chose "truth". The question was rather straight forward, " Do you like sum1 on the bus?" to which i responded with a truth full, "its highly possible" and returned to my movie.
Warning!!! the following is the only thing i regret about the entire trip.
Towards the end of the movie the girl I like came back to where i and lionel were sitting, and I'll admit my heart jumped when i realized it but i tried to play it cool, FYI i suck at playing it cool. U see instead of diverting my attention to the girl I like who was now paying special attention to me I opted to watch the movie.(which i could quote by heart), with her watching along, figuring I'll finish it then we'll talk. like I said terrible at playing it cool.
Well the trip soon ended, and realizing (after some discussion with my friends) that i had royally effed up with her I let her know that i was sorry for ignoring her and she said it was alright, but i haven't gotten a single response from her in any way, shape or form to any other forms of communication (txting, calling, myspace), and its been 2 days.
There is no telling what could have happened had that time been put to better use but the past is for history majors and so I press on.
-matt
posted by Matthew Flowers | 7:33 PM
1 Comments:
Matt! I wasnt ignoring you! My phone has been screwing up the past two days and today when i tried charging it again it turned on and i got all your messages! But, im still not sure what i think about this.
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