"Broken Promises" - Element Eighty

Ok, last night i was sitting in church and we were all singing and suddenly i started thinking about Georgia. I started thinking about all the things she has done to me, to my family. I thought about how i should do the "Christian" thing and forgive her, but that just made me think of all the horrible things she has done.

I started to get a headache. the juxtaposition of my memories of my mom and my knowledge of her transformation to Georgia is too much, and all the sudden i started crying. everyone around me is praising God and I can't even focus all I can do is cry about the fact that I don't have a mother anymore.

Why is it that I can't seem to completely seperate my mom and Georgia in my head? Its as though in every memory of my mom I can see Georgia, and in every thought about Georgia i can see my mom. I have to make this seperation. My mom is dead. Georgia took her from me. I feel like such a weak person for saying this, but... I miss my mom.

The "Theme Song for today" is "Broken Promises" by Element Eighty.

-matt